[ 03042007 3.15am busythoughtfullfewdays ]

is life finally settling down? perhaps.
the past few days of trials and post trials have made me think all over again.
the meaning of committment. its actually about deciding to do it. once you decide on something, and follow through, things will work out somehow.
if you always look for something better, you might find that it never comes. all teams start from the same level, adjusting, keeping some, and letting some go along the way, changing team name.... its whether the people in it commit to each other and follow through to the end.
which is why i'm so grateful for dawn and shan. we've had our good share of rough times. but in the end, its always been the three of us sticking. there's like... an unwritten bond factored in somewhere. we'll take a 5th, but the 5th becomes 6th once shan comes back, whether or not the 5th is better or worse than shan after her inactivity.
d4wn is fantastic too. shes easy to explain things to, and she reasons things out.
seems like all dawn's are level headed thinkers. lol...
asterisk. a new beginning. lets see how we continue to work things out from here.
welcoming cass d4wn and astatine to the team. =)

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sudden influx of gals, and gals teams starting up. i lament the state of the community. once a new girl pops up, the male population gravitates there. lol... a theory cyn jy were telling me was that the dota world is the only world that many guys have. so once a gal is introduced, they find it easier to approach her through the world that they know, rather than some other gal outside of their world.
all i can say is, i wish all the gals, and gal teams there, a hearty glhf. if you think its a simple matter to get a team up and running, especially if u just throw 5 random gals together and expect it to work... then really... GLHF.
but its nice to have some competition at last. a reason for * to exist. finally.

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first it was toga and fungae.
now its tooga and fooga.
what next?
please, its toccata and fugue.
LOL

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TREASURE YOU!~*
[02:17:15] furryfish: i think
[02:17:41] dNLinda: hi tammine
[02:17:47] furryfish: i think
[02:17:48] furryfish: that ice
[02:17:52] furryfish: is the world's best bf
[02:17:53] furryfish: =D
[02:17:55] furryfish: dun tell him
[02:17:56] Cloudx`-: LOL ?
[02:17:57] furryfish: he sleeping alr
[02:18:02] Eterry`-: o_o
[02:18:02] Cloudx`-: did ice blackmail u to say that
[02:18:05] furryfish: nah
[02:18:06] furryfish: hes like
[02:18:12] furryfish: asleep on the phone

"dun tell him" so why i tell you for?
"i think" twice cos i was hesitating. lol!

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i admire people who dare to flame openly on public domain. simply because, it means you are sure that you don't mind making an immediate, and long term enemy. true its your feelings and your opinions, but how sure are you those feelings and opinions won't change? how many first impressions have you changed? what makes you think this one won't change too, given some time?
in the end, it might just be a momentary prick of your pride. or a heated comment.
but i guess thats what happens when the internet is so readilly available. you type faster than you can think through what you want to do/say. or the consequences of it.
or what you say, might be misconstrued to mean something else. misinterpreted and in conjunction with the other person's lack of self esteem and personal frustration... balloon into something unexpected.
i've realised... that most things get bad, because the person is probably already sensitive about the issue that has been brought up. like this guy might have been berating himself for being a lousy bf cos of his ex who dumped him for another guy 5 years ago, then you come along and say something like... "you prick what for you leave that dota game, stupid nerd, no wonder got no gf." [broken english intended, insert vulgarities in any language you wish just make sure its in profusion]
ggnore, you hit his sensitive spot (i dont mean below the belt that area ya...) and without really knowing why he's so upset with the comment, he flares up and pwns u flat. woot? KTB or.

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it was actually interesting to speak to you again and it made me think of the time when things were still ok and when things were all starting out new. before all the initial problems. even though i don't really know if it was really you, or someone hijacking your com. for once its without animosity, and about something pretty neutral. even if it was a grand total of 2 lines?
guess i'm not one who can hold grudges.
yeah sherica, this para's for you.
ps, the vs was ice. no surprise there. have no idea why there was concealment going on in the first place. not my doing. *shrugz*

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if any team needs tips on trialing, feel free to ask me. i can give useful suggestions! there's definitely more logistics to handle than you think k!

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i just realised that this entry took the good part of an hour to complete. alot of thinking went into it... and alot of thoughts went through my mind when i was composing it. jumbled up now and wanna tok to him. but he's a s l e e p.